My life is fuckign non-stop. its almost 8 I'm still at work. now I'm off to do some errands. I've never been so busy in my life as I am now. Not sure what I think about it. on one hand im a third dead so its about time, on the other hand I'm all over the place and I think it may be time to focus like a laser beam on one thing or another. Krishnamurti talks about awareness and how when one is completely aware of something then intelligence is maximized (one's sense of self also disappears). I am fractured and therefore dim and self-aware. I guess the trick is to be focused on what one is doing when one is doing it, then you can do whatever whenever and the intelligence is applied. It ain't no easy feat. My dad told me not to be penny wise and pound foolish. He was talking about my car but I think it is a great axiom. I heard on the radio that history doesn't repeat, but it rhymes. I like that. Katie's song is sweet. I need more guitar skills. rock and roll is here to go charleston chew for governor done making video games for the day. time to get some stuff out of the old apartment and think about getting older.